An urge to squeeze things, limbs, flesh To touch, to taste, to bite To tear apart and put back together Molding, yielding. To feel messy, sticky, sweaty The dirt, the grit, the stained reality The smoke in my hair The irreversible. Fuck clean girl aesthetics, sheet masks, cleansing tea, detached minds Fuck smooth, frictionless, inoffensive, digital Desire pre-packaged, low-calorie, carefully lit. Give me loud, smoky, dirty, angry, ferocious, feral Give me obsession, fire, passion, hate, love Give me worship, radical attachment, misery, ecstasy. Give me something I can hold.